But I get up again.

This has not been the best week. Early this week, I got myself in a funk; today is another day. With lots of words of wisdom from my friend Anne and her favorite poet Jon O’Donohue, and my meditation teacher Jeff Warren I’m ready to hop out of bed and enjoy the day focusing on the positive and the things that I can get pleasure from. Today that is going to be my kids and my grandkids. What more could I ask for? Oh, I know, mobility in my left side. I have plans today to make a schedule to keep me from slumping again. I can’t do that again; it was not fun for anybody. But, as Brene Brown says, feel all the feels. I’m certainly doing that.

My daughter-in-law Kyla helped me to make a schedule for my days. I am super tired from the seizure but getting tired of sitting all day! Good job I have Rex to keep me entertained. We even got to play trains for a little while yesterday. I also took a walk while Rex rode his strider Bike. We walked 1.4 miles around Tollgate Farm today and it was exhausting!

I’m feeling quite tired this afternoon, so I’ll just end with the message Dave sent out after my recent PET CT scan to look into the problems with my left side:

Hi all, we have had some troubling news. It seems the tumor in the back of Dawn’s brain is growing again. This is not a major surprise due to the type of cancer. We just discussed this with the Dr. and there are a few options that the Dr. is suggesting. First is sending a thin probe into the tumor area for an ablation, where they burn out the tumor in a controlled way. There is a new chemo drug we can try, and a trial that Dawn can enter. Also, more invasive surgery. The Dr. is working through the options, currently the favored options are a referral for the ablation procedure and entering the trial. The other benefit of the ablation is that it opens up the blood brain barrier to make the trial and / or other chemo drugs more effective. Not good news but we continue to be positive and hope for the best in further treatment. Dawn is basically okay in herself and starting to make improvements from the swelling.

https://www.cancercenter.com/diagnosing-cancer/diagnostic-imaging/pet-ct-scan