Hi All, just finished with the Dr. and things are looking okay, everything is stable swelling is reduced and the tumors looked smaller compared to the MRI in April. Basically this is good news as stable / not getting worse is what we are aiming for. Dr. is reducing the steroid dose and getting Dawn back on the Avastin infusion. Thanks everyone for your support and encouragement.
Getting naked and vulnerable in the outdoors.
Have you ever hiked naked? Skinny dipped?
Outdoor podcast April 27th, the author talks of her experience of bring naked in hot springs and how that made her feel exposed and vulnerable and the subsequent effect on her view of her self, body image and mental health.
When our kids were little we camped by the Kettle River in Canada and frequently skinny dipped. It feels so good on the skin! For me in my current situation, I need help getting to and using the bathroom so super vulnerable exposing my skinny butt every day to multiple people so going naked is not something I want to do.
Bottom line: we feel more comfortable when we fit in with those around us, naked or not. Hence our obsession with Instagram, wanting to fit in but a distorted view of what life looks like! I am equally guilty of that! I follow yogis and get down on myself when I realize I can no longer do what I used to do. I get reminded every day to enjoy each day to the best of my ability. Comparing myself to #beachyogagirl really does not serve me. I need to let it go!
What I can do:
Dancing in snow. Now I get my family and friends to do it and send pictures.
This blog is my way of coping with my cancer. It helps me to put things in their place and work through what is really important, the gap between what was and my new reality. Turns out that was always there, I just did not truly acknowledge it.. Family, friends travel, my town… my advice to you all is to acknowledge and celebrate what you have in your life. Enjoy all the moments, even the shitty ones as they teach us something too. Through this journey I have learned:
Two Lemons 